The fifth part of my adventure in becoming a TV / Sissy

Some days after I had bought the lingerie I was again in the same sexshop, with the theater in the back.

I looked through the shelves, because I still needed to spent 20€. I found some kind of Collar, for 30€ and decided to give some of my own money for it, too. I had brought the bra, panties and stockings in a bagpack and after I bought the Collar I paid for the entrance to the theater.

I was planning to undress my normal clothes and put the lingerie and the collar on. After I entered the theater, I went to one of the three smaller rooms, locked the door and begann to change.

After I was done I only wore the lingerie and the collar. Eventually I was not brave enough to open the door, step outside and show myself off. I just sat there, watched the porn on the flat-screen tv and jerked myself after some minutes.

After cumming I changed again and left the theater.

At home I started chatting with guys on the dating sites and told them about the lingerie, collar, the changing in the theater, etc...

One of them (the one who had sent me pics of sissies/traps) asked me if I liked it and if I was planning to get some more clothes to wear and if I would really be brave enough to show me like this.

I answered him, that I am not really sure, if I would really be brave enough to do this. He instead just told me, that I should try it. He said, that I had nothing to loose and that I would like it or not. I agreed, that I could give it a try, but that I really was not sure if I would.

While I was chatting with that guy, I still met the guy who gave me the 50€. I sucked him regularly now, we met at least once a week at the theater and I wore my lingerie under my normal clothes.

Some days later I thought about it and decided to look up the internet about sissies and stuff like that. I looked up various sites, learned something about this kind of "fetish" and finally found some site which was called annamalicesissyselfhypnosis.com. One of the first videos I found was "Bend over sissy" (https://de.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph596a4b3f4d643). There were some more "training videos" I found, but I don't know their names right now, some of the were with music and just for dressing up or sucking cock, but all of them were captioned and I kind of lost me in the sentences which showed up on my screen.

From this day on I visited annamalice at least once a day, looked for new videos or just re-watched older ones. As all of this occured in 2009 there was not that much of high-quality content and so I re-watched a lot of the videos I liked. There were some sissy cum trainers with a length of about 15 minutes, captioned all over and with heavy bass music underlined. Like this: https://de.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph57642b0de626f, but there were like 5-6 versions of this kind of trainer from one creator, but I can't find them unfortunately.

While I watched these kind of porn, the consume of BDSM-related porn lowered. From time to time I was watching some of my favourite videos, but the most consumed was the sissy "training", "motivation", "brainwash",...

I decided, that I would give it a try and that I wanted to buy clothes. Because I don't had that much money at that time, I started to save 50€ per month for my big shopping trip.

I don't know if it was the effect of the porn, if I was just curious about the feel of the clothes on my body or if it were the chats with the guy with a liking for sissies/traps.

After three months I had saved about 150€ and was confident, that it would get me some nice clothings.

I drove to each of the sexshops in my hometown and looked at the clothes they sold. Most of the clothes the got were fetish-clothes (wetlook, latex, leather,...), but as I liked BDSM also, I was excited by the thought of it.

After I had visited every shop I went back to one withouth a theater. I found it had the most variety of clothes and so I entered the shop and started to go through the shelves.

Relatively early I decided to buy wetlook clothes, because leather and latex were way above my financial capabilities. I walked through the shop and looked at different pieces of clothing, at the prices and began to make a plan in my head, how to get the most, each other fitting, clothes for my money.

After some time the lady behind the counter asked me if I was searching something particular for my girlfriend or if I don't know what to buy.

I answered her, that I wanted to buy a complete outfit, but that I only had 150€. She told me, that it won't be enough to get an satisfying result with that small amount of money. Nevertheless she began to help me to collect some different clothes. She showed me a black, wetlook mini-skirt and after I told her that it looks good, she asked me for the clothing size of my girlfriend.

As I told her the clothing size I needed, she realized that it was for me. She smiled and got it in the right size. From this moment on, she was even more enthusiastic to help me. After we had gathered some more clothes she told me to go in the changing booth and try them on. I did and was really nervous, because I thought she might want to look at me in the clothes and I was not sure if I was mentally prepared for that.

After I had slipped in the first outfit (the black mini-skirt, a black-wetlook-cloth body with holes at the breasts) she asked me if she could have a look. I agreed and she stuck her head between the curtain. She mustered me from tip to toe, pulled her head back and told me to wait a moment.

After some seconds she came back with a black, long-haired wig and asked me to try it. While I was struggling to get the wig on my head, she left and came back with high-heeled shoes. They were also completely black and had an 8cm heel. I tried them on and she told me to come out of the booth and look at me in the mirror. I stepped outside and nearly tripped over the heels. Carefully I walked towards the mirror and looked at myself, well not really myself, but some kind of an expression of me. It looked kind of unfinished and the lady told me, that it will look different with stockings, collar and maybe some accessoires.

She told me to go back to the booth. I did and waited for her. She came back with a mask. The mask was out of cloth and black (everything was black at first) and had holes in it for the mouth and the eyes.

It was kind of strange, because I never thought about getting one before. But as she explained to me, that I would be able to hide my masculin features (f.e. sharp chin) and that I could give weight to my eyes and mouth with make-up (f.e. lipstick, eye-shadow, fake eyelashes) I really liked the idea of wearing a mask.

After all she brought me some more clothes and I looked at everything, tried the clothes on and watched me in the mirror.

After I was finished I decided to buy:

- the wig

- the heels

- the mask

- black wetlook skirt

- black wetlook-cloth body

- some fitting stockings

All together was about 250€. It was more than I wanted to spent, but I felt I needed it like this. I paid for the clothes and went home.

At home I remembered what the lady said about getting make-up and so I started to search the internet for some things I might need. I found some lipstick, eye-shadow, eye-liner, mascara and some perfume. I ordered everything online and was hoping it would be brought very soon, as I was really curious how I could look.