Part 37

Before I continue, I want to write something for Part 36.

At the end of this part, Michael fucked me without a condom. I am not really sure why I did let that happen, maybe it was because I was just horny and was not able to think about the possible consequences or maybe I just trusted Holger, that he would not do something dangerous to me. We can argue now, how “safe” sex without a condom can be, but in the following I will further describe how Holger, really did not put me in a dangerous situation in that case.

While we drove home, Holger asked me why I did not argue about being fucked without a condom from Michael. I answered like I wrote above, but Holger wanted me to chose one of the answers and told me to think about it for a few minutes. After I was finished thinking about it, I came to the conclusion, that I really had felt safe the whole time and so I decided to go with the second part of the answer. Holger smiled and told me, that I was right. He regularly wrote messages with Michael since the “party” at Peters and Michael told him, that he regularly got a HIV-test from a doctor, because he once told this doctor, that he was gay. I was not really sure what to think about that, but somehow some people still label gay people as more endangered to get for example HIV. But in this case I was kind of glad about that, as I had really liked the feeling of getting fucked bare and of getting his cum in my asspussy.

I asked Holger, if he had seen the test of Michael and to my surprise he answered positively. The last test was from a week ago and Michael had sent it to him via mail as they were about to arrange the date for today. I was kind of baffled, that it was all planned and neither Holger, nor Michael had forgotten to bring condoms. I asked Holger, what he would have done, if I would have argued or declined of being fucked bare by someone else then him. He told me, that he really was like 90% sure, that I would not do this and the other 10% were just a risk, he was willing to take. In case of me declining, Holger would have told me about the test and would have punished me for not trusting him in some way. He did not say, what he would have done for a punishment, but I was sure, it would have been something mean. Further I asked Holger, if the answer, that I trusted him that much, that I felt he would not put me in danger, was the right one and if the answer, that I was just that horny and unable to think about all, would have been wrong.

Holger smiled and told me: “Both answers would have been acceptable, because both could have been the reason for your behavior. But for either case I had a punishment in my mind, which I could 'give' to you.”

I was quite curious now, what those punishments were and so a I asked Holger, if I was allowed to know them.

“Well, you can know one. I will tell you what the punishment is for 'not being horny enough'.”, he made a little pause, before he continued, “As you know, sluts don't think, right?”

“Yes, Sir.”

“So, in what condition do you need to be, to shut down your thoughts?”

“I need to be horny, sir.”, I answered (In one of the first parts I wrote about, how we found out, that I was easier to give into something I was ordered to do, if I was more than horny).

“All right, what could I use in that case, to punish you and to make sure, the horny-state becomes a permanent state?”

“You could forbid me to sissygasm for some time”, I answered and as soon as the words flew out of my mouth, I knew what the punishment would be.

“See, you are too clever right now and still able to think about those complex things. I think we will start with a month to begin with. As you are not allowed to use any sort of vibrator any more, I am quite sure, that you are unable to cum at the moment anyway.”

“Yes, Sir.” I answered.

To be honest, I thought he was right with the last sentence and so I thought it is not a big deal, as I would have not been able to make me cum anyway. At that point I did not think of my schedule and not about the different days, on which I was supposed to use a dildo.

“After that month we will see if you are still too clever, or if we need to extent the ban.”

After arriving at Holgers house, we had a coffee and smoked a cigarette on his terrace. Holger told me, that he was quite happy with my behavior and obedience today. I told him, that I would try my best, not to lose the game, because I was curious which toy he might gift to me, if I won. After we were finished with the cigarette, we ordered some food and I was supposed to open the door again (like the evening before). This time we ordered pizza, but the guy which brought it, looked at me in the same way, the other guy the day before. We ate and after that Holger told me to go into my room. I did as he told me to and heard the key lock the door a few minutes later. It was 9:00pm at that time already and so I was quite sure, that I would not been freed until the next morning. I was right. I relaxed for some time and thought about what had happened that day and how randy it was. Like most of the tasks would have been unthinkable some months before, but with the guidance of Holger it really felt like it was just a logical step for me. I felt asleep some time later.