Part 34

After I had received my new, changed shedule I was a bit nervous, because as I thought earlier it was quite demanding. Not only psychical, as I feared, but also physically.

Holger asked me what I was thinking about the new shedule.

I told him, that it would be quite demanding, but also interesting. I really felt that way, even though I was nervous as I described above.

I don't know why I had ideas, that made me a bit uncomfortable, but also aroused me. All in all I think it was quite logical for the next step to be more open to tasks which would lead me further onto the path.

We continued to talk for about an hour and Holger asked me some more questions to my feelings and thoughts about the shedule. For example he asked me if I knew some good places to have a walk. I had not, but told him, that I was quite sure to finde some spots which were not that crowded with people.

He asked me further how I thought about going shopping for groceries all dressed up.

I answered, that I was nervous about it and that I would definetely drive for the allowed hour, to find a supermarket in which nobody knew me and could therefore recognize me.

He laughed a litte bit, but told me, that he is completely fine with that, for now. He added, that we might adjust the shedule in the future.

I asked him, if and what requirements need to be met, to get to that point.

His answer was making me a bit nervous. I don't know the exact words, but it was like: "If I got a feeling, that you can handle the previous tasks without great nervousness, we will think how we can make the shedule a bit more challenging. We will either adjust, replace or add some tasks."

After we were finished with our talk Holger told me to write down the new shedule in a tidy handwriting. I needed about an hour for that and had to write it down several times, until Holger was satisfied with it.

It was about 10:00am at this point and Holger asked if I was hungry. I answered positively and so Holger told me to go to the bakery in his neighborhood. He gave me some money, told me to put on my coat and allowed me to take two cigarettes. One for the way to the bakery and one for the way back to his house.

I left the house and began to walk. I knew the way from my previous visit at the bakery (I wrote about it in an earlier part).

As I had been there already and there were no difficulties, I was not worried about buying some rolls.

I arrived at the bakery and inside were three people in addition to the two women behind the counter. I entered and got in the waiting line. The first looks of the people inside were quite disconcerted, but after a few seconds all of them looked away and continued with what they did.

While I was waiting, there were some more people entering the bakery and got in line behind me. One after another of the people in front of me got their rolls, cake, etc... and left.

As it was my turn to order, there were four people in the line behind me. I ordered the rolls, gave the money to the cashier and left.

On my way back to Holgers house I thought about the people in the bakery and why I had not been nervous. Even though I had been in the bakery before, there have never been more people in it than today.

I came to the conclusion, that I was not really nervous about them, because nobody knew me here in Holgers hometown.

After arriving at Holger house I told him about my thoughts and he answered: "Maybe you just were not nervous, because you don't care anymore? Or maybe you were not nervous, because you liked it?"

I told him, that I definetely kind of liked it and that I would not have gone that far already, without saying my 'safe-phrase', if I was not liking what he did to me or what was happening in general.

He smiled and told me to prepare breakfast. I did and after five minutes we sat down at his kitchen table and ate.

After we were finished, I began to do the dishes and Holger watched me doing so.

"Was it difficult to carry the money, cigarettes and lighter?", he asked on the side.

I was not really sure what he meant by that and told him, that it was okay, but a bit inconvenient without pockets in the coat.

"Well", he began, "I think we need to get you a handbag or something else, so that you can carry some items with you, without having to hold them in your hands all the time."

I liked the idea of carrying a handbag with me, but I was not quite sure where we should get one.

After I was finished doing the dishes, Holger told me to get changed. He wanted me to wear some black stockings, a pink pantie, a white skirt and a white top.

I went into my room and got dressed. After I was finished, he told me to dress the coat.

We left his house and got in his car. I became a bit nervous, but as I trusted Holger, I was quite sure, that he would not demand too much of me.

We drove for about half an hour on a rural road and entered a parking lot. The parking lot was quite big and filled up to the half of its capacity. I don't know exactly, but I think there were about 150 cars, maybe some more or less.

Holger parked the car on a nearly empty row of the parking lot. He told me to get out.

After I stepped out of the car I looked around and saw some stores which were connected to the parking lot. Everywhere were people walking around, some carrying cartons or bags to their cars and others were walking towards the stores.

If I remember correctly there were like fifteen stores. Some stores for sports clothes, some for casual clothes, some shoe stores,...

Clearly this complex only was about shopping and had been build into nowhere for only this purpose.

"Nervous?", Holger asked me and I nodded. I was quite happy about my coat, which was covering my body from neck to my calfs. The dress I was wearing was quite inappropiate for a place like this, because there were even some families with children and I told Holger, that I was not really feeling well with this in my mind.

"Yes, we will hurry", he told me and added: "nobody can see what you are wearing underneath the coat. Only your shoes and the bottom of the stockings are visible, as well as your face with makeup and wig."

"Yes, Sir.", I answered.

We walked over to the stores and I remarked, how some people looked at me, but looked away pretty soon, when they saw, that I was looking back. We entered the first store, it was for female clothes. We began to walk around the entrance area and looked at different handbags, which were displayed on a rack. I took some of them off the rack and appraised them.

After about five minutes I found a black and white leatherette handbag with a pinkish writing on it and a long cord, for carrying the handbag over the shoulder. From the outside it looked kind of small, but as I looked inside, it was bigger than I thought before. It was divided into three sections. The two on the sides were smaller and the one in the middle was quite big. I showed it to Holger and told him, that I liked it. He smiled, took the handbag from me and walked over to the counter. I followed him. After paying we left the store and headed back to the car. All in all it had been like ten minutes from arriving at the parking lot until we were back at the car. We got into it and left the parking lot.

We drove back to Holgers house and after arriving Holger told me to prepare my handbag. I asked him, if he wanted something particular in it, but he only told me to put things in it, I think I might need. I started to gather some items. I put make-up (lipstick, eyeliner, eye-shadow, mascara and foundation) in one of the small pockets on the side. In the other small pocket, I put my cellphone (and the charger) and my wallet.

The middle section was free until now and so I took some cigarettes, a lighter, some matches, some chewing gum, a pack handkerchiefs and the keys to my car and my apartment. After I was finished, I gave the handbag to Holger, who had watched me the whole time. He took the handbag and took out my cellphone, the charger and my wallet. Also he took out everything I had put in the middle section. He told me to take cigarettes, matches and chewing gums for the small pocket, which was now free again. I did as he told me to and as I was done, he told me to take my ID-card and my driving license out of my wallet and put it in the small pocket, too.

“What do you think goes in the middle section?”, he asked me afterwards.

I had no idea and told him, that I did not knew.

“Go upstairs and get a dildo, nipple clamps, a plug and some lube.”, he told me.

I went upstairs and got what he wanted. As I returned he was waiting for me and watched me put the items in the middle section of my handbag. Holger had a look into the handbag after I was finished and told me that there was quite some more room. He told me to get additionally my collar, the cuffs for my wrists and ankles and further two short chains (to secure the ankle-cuffs). I went upstairs, gathered what he wanted and returned. Now the handbag was quite filled and there was no room for anything more. Holger was happy with the outcome and told me, that I will have to carry the handbag from now on, whenever I was outside.